Tropang Utot-Incomplete

I wonder what they are doing right now, perhaps they are holding on a bottle of beer, eating something, laughing at each other’s funny thoughts. I guess they are enjoying the night together, the three of them Isay, Usyo and Dante; even without me, even without us. Bitter??? Hehe!

They could possibly be talking about me at this very instance or about the rest of the members who were not able to accompany them.

I am just speculating, simply because I am not part of tonight’s gimmick. It is very seldom that I decline invitations especially those made by them. The situation left me no choice that’s why I did not join. However, it could also be counted to my advantage as I would not have to spend something extra that could worsen my budget dilemma. Also, I should not discount the fact that every moment I spend with Coi is more to my treasures.

I just noticed that for the past few gimmicks never we did get complete attendance. Most of the time it was Jackie who was out of the scene due to her Maternity Leave  last week it was Isay and for tonight Xyra and me are both absent.

Even though I am thinking about a lot of maybes this time; I still wish that they will enjoy the night and that they will arrive home safely. Hopefully, next time would be a night of perfect attendance.

Yehey!

 photo courtesy of iclipart

Today is just another unforgettable day for me. You know why? Because today is the very first day I got my very first opps of my own.

I am just so happy about it. I have it posted already and now I am just waiting for the approval. I am keeping my fingers crossed on this. Hope my entry would be qualified. 

I get back to my enrollment and found out that the very first URL I have submitted was approved a month ago, that was June 28, 2010. I just finished enrolling my other sites. I just wish that in the next thirty (30) days, I will get another offer to be written in these sites. :)

Negative Emotions Make Me Sick

I guess my ex-boss was right when she told me that my negative emotions are making me sick. Looking at my body-built you will never see in me that I am a person who usually gets ill. But these past few days were as if the evidence of it all. I've got colds, cough and slight fever and I think I have them until now. And they're not leaving me along with my emotions that get higher and higher everyday.

photo from iclipart.com

I'm trying to release them all so I'll be fine but then some people are still pushing me through it. I might come up to the losing end because of this but I can't help myself up. I am mad, I am angry, I am depressed, I am frustrated, I really feel so miserable this time. And I don't know what can make me happy.

I transferred job, to enjoy the convenience of the location, to avoid the long travel time, to give myself more time for my son and for my own leisure and activities even if it has  somehow directed me to a downward career path. I don't intend to forget that I am a mother to my son, I just want to benefit from a balanced-life.

And now I am being misinterpreted, how can I relax? With all those unfair criticisms thrown at me.  This is really pulling me down.

I want to start my week right. I'll try to think of happy thoughts by tomorrow and follow Niko's principle - Honor Your Own Truth.

Expect the Expected

Oh, wow! I just attracted a negative vibe.
It should not come out today.
Why not on Sunday instead?
Anyways, to enjoy and have fun is my choice.
Even with this hassle.
All I know is just I want to unwind,
Exhale and relax.
Release all the anguish in me.
I need to de-stress myself.
Be it under the sun or the pouring rain.
I just need to forget some things.
Even just for a while.

Follow Me Wednesday

I love to follow and be followed so I join Follow Me Wednesday. I am happy to put comments as well and happier I also got one. Friends & folks, let's win more friends, come join us here.

Thanks to

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Just For A Thought

My Prince ---> Macoi

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A Cleansing Act

This will be my last post for tonight as I must go to bed earlier than the usual. I should prepare myself for tomorrow as I was given the chance to do something noble. I will be donating a part of me and it's gonna be my blood.

I was in college when I started to try the deed. There was this program of medicine students hand in hand with the Philippine Red Cross whereas they looked for students whom are willing to donate a blood. I was so fortunate then that I passed the screening. That was the first time I learned about my blood type which is "O". From then on, every time I encounter similar programs I usually acts as a donor.

Donating blood is a charity work. It is a selfless act. It is a life saving move. Consequently, it is not just a third party people who benefits from this but definitely yourself as it is in fact a cleansing process for your body. The prick of a needle may be painful somehow but you don't actually lose a thing. You even gain from it as your blood will instantly be renewed.

I wish I will pass the screening again as I have skipped from donating blood since when I got pregnant (two years back). And wishing further that along with the blood that will be taken away from me are the negative thoughts I have in my mind right now.

My Emotion Rocks

Funny how my emotions move. Up and down, sway side by side and round and round.

Just the other day I was happy and thankful.

Yesterday I was sad and thankful.

Now I am confused  and still thankful.

Mood swings really. PMS? Probably.

I have received series of advice which are really really very good, but I don't know what's keeping me from not doing them.

I wanted to shout but I preferred silence instead.

As of now, I just want to keep myself quiet and let my hands do the talking.