Di-cember

hay... December, here it comes again...

when all or majority of the people in the world happily celebrates the birthday of the Redeemer - Jesus Christ...

What will we expect?

Gifts, other Christmas stuffs, bonuses,and a lot more things that make everyone of us happier than the ordinary days...

Personally, my emotions are all mixed-up as I feel sudden loss of things I usually enjoy and while I am also getting excited celebrating the first Christmas of my son Macoi...

How I wish I could give him all... but I guess all I have is a bunch of love & care that will never end...

NOt much of gifts and stuffs for him to appreciate...

When October came, I was wishing for a little Christmas lantern sparkling with lights as seen in the streets to buy for Macoi, now it's December, he still doesn't have it...

I was also wishing that we can now celebrate the holidays in our new house but still, this wasn't granted...

I am planning to buy for a digital camera so I can closely monitor macoi's activities through photos, unofrtunately I still don't have it...

All these things makeme somehow disappointed but these are just material things which we can still possess in the future...

But as for now, what I'm feeling is that, it seems like it's not December...

"Di December"

We'll I just have two wishes left for him...

1) Wish that we can celebrate Christmas in the province with grandmom...

2) that Macoi's dadi can simply greet him "Merry Christmas to my baby"...

The first one is simply close to reality, but the next one is still a wish which I am hoping to come true... =(

These things cannot be axchanged for a price...