hayy...

i reallyt think i need to blog this up...

i just can't explain the feeling i am in right now...

Am i starting to fall in love again?

Or it is just brought about by the excitement of having someone again... or just a sort of expectation...

i really don't know...

all i know is that i can feel the "kilig factor" and the sense of anticipation from him...

because of this, i have to stop myself... before I explode... before it eats up my time and effort...

sorry, but I have to temporarily delete his cellphone numbers while I still don't memorize them...

i have to stop expecting anything from him in the first place to prevent myself from exasperation...

i don't wanna be hurt...

macoi is my one and only priority as of now...

i don't want him to get affected by my "insanity"(what a term???) or temporary madness in the first place...

i love my son so much...

it may not just be for him...

but if i'l fall in love with a man,

he has to love macoi too before i could give him the love that he deserves from me...

hayy...