Pessimistic Me Once More

Sometimes I wonder if it's me and my dirty mind who's at fault. Isn't it that I've got a fast mind to think ahead? I guess nothing's wrong with that but thinking the negative way was my usual problem. I don't know if it's because of lack of trust, or something that has to do with his history or was it brought about by my own experiences.

I hate arguments. I want to talk things out right away. I don't want any delay as that could even lead me to more negative thoughts. As such I tend to become too persistent and demanding yet I always long for understanding.

I need an assurance as I want to let go of this kind of character. I want to live again.