Friday, July 30, 2010

Tropang Utot-Incomplete

I wonder what they are doing right now, perhaps they are holding on a bottle of beer, eating something, laughing at each other’s funny thoughts. I guess they are enjoying the night together, the three of them Isay, Usyo and Dante; even without me, even without us. Bitter??? Hehe!
They could possibly be talking about me at this very instance or about the rest of the members who were not able to accompany them.
I am just speculating, simply because I am not part of tonight’s gimmick. It is very seldom that I decline invitations especially those made by them. The situation left me no choice that’s why I did not join. However, it could also be counted to my advantage as I would not have to spend something extra that could worsen my budget dilemma. Also, I should not discount the fact that every moment I spend with Coi is more to my treasures.
I just noticed that for the past few gimmicks never we did get complete attendance. Most of the time it was Jackie who was out of the scene due to her Maternity Leave  last week it was Isay and for tonight Xyra and me are both absent.
Even though I am thinking about a lot of maybes this time; I still wish that they will enjoy the night and that they will arrive home safely. Hopefully, next time would be a night of perfect attendance.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


 photo courtesy of iclipart

Today is just another unforgettable day for me. You know why? Because today is the very first day I got my very first opps of my own.

I am just so happy about it. I have it posted already and now I am just waiting for the approval. I am keeping my fingers crossed on this. Hope my entry would be qualified. 

I get back to my enrollment and found out that the very first URL I have submitted was approved a month ago, that was June 28, 2010. I just finished enrolling my other sites. I just wish that in the next thirty (30) days, I will get another offer to be written in these sites. :)

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Negative Emotions Make Me Sick

I guess my ex-boss was right when she told me that my negative emotions are making me sick. Looking at my body-built you will never see in me that I am a person who usually gets ill. But these past few days were as if the evidence of it all. I've got colds, cough and slight fever and I think I have them until now. And they're not leaving me along with my emotions that get higher and higher everyday.
photo from

I'm trying to release them all so I'll be fine but then some people are still pushing me through it. I might come up to the losing end because of this but I can't help myself up. I am mad, I am angry, I am depressed, I am frustrated, I really feel so miserable this time. And I don't know what can make me happy.

I transferred job, to enjoy the convenience of the location, to avoid the long travel time, to give myself more time for my son and for my own leisure and activities even if it has  somehow directed me to a downward career path. I don't intend to forget that I am a mother to my son, I just want to benefit from a balanced-life.

And now I am being misinterpreted, how can I relax? With all those unfair criticisms thrown at me.  This is really pulling me down.

I want to start my week right. I'll try to think of happy thoughts by tomorrow and follow Niko's principle - Honor Your Own Truth.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Expect the Expected

Oh, wow! I just attracted a negative vibe.
It should not come out today.
Why not on Sunday instead?
Anyways, to enjoy and have fun is my choice.
Even with this hassle.
All I know is just I want to unwind,
Exhale and relax.
Release all the anguish in me.
I need to de-stress myself.
Be it under the sun or the pouring rain.
I just need to forget some things.
Even just for a while.

Follow Me Wednesday

I love to follow and be followed so I join Follow Me Wednesday. I am happy to put comments as well and happier I also got one. Friends & folks, let's win more friends, come join us here.

Thanks to
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Would appreciate more if you'll follow my other sites too:

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

A Cleansing Act

This will be my last post for tonight as I must go to bed earlier than the usual. I should prepare myself for tomorrow as I was given the chance to do something noble. I will be donating a part of me and it's gonna be my blood.

I was in college when I started to try the deed. There was this program of medicine students hand in hand with the Philippine Red Cross whereas they looked for students whom are willing to donate a blood. I was so fortunate then that I passed the screening. That was the first time I learned about my blood type which is "O". From then on, every time I encounter similar programs I usually acts as a donor.

Donating blood is a charity work. It is a selfless act. It is a life saving move. Consequently, it is not just a third party people who benefits from this but definitely yourself as it is in fact a cleansing process for your body. The prick of a needle may be painful somehow but you don't actually lose a thing. You even gain from it as your blood will instantly be renewed.

I wish I will pass the screening again as I have skipped from donating blood since when I got pregnant (two years back). And wishing further that along with the blood that will be taken away from me are the negative thoughts I have in my mind right now.

My Emotion Rocks

Funny how my emotions move. Up and down, sway side by side and round and round.

Just the other day I was happy and thankful.

Yesterday I was sad and thankful.

Now I am confused  and still thankful.

Mood swings really. PMS? Probably.

I have received series of advice which are really really very good, but I don't know what's keeping me from not doing them.

I wanted to shout but I preferred silence instead.

As of now, I just want to keep myself quiet and let my hands do the talking.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Emotions Uncontrolled

I'm Tired

Others might not notice but I am really feeling tired. Tired of everything physically, mentally, emotionally.  

I Feel Deprived

I live at my own house, a house I invested from my own labor and earnings but it seems like it isn't mine at all.

I am Angry

Angry at me, as I wanted to speak up but I can't.

I am Sick

I really am not feeling well but seems like I should not act as one.

I am Emotionally an Mentally Stressed

With a lot of questions buzzing my mind, with all problems I want to be resolved and all the difficulties I am facing right now.

I am Guilty

Of something I could not reveal.

Maybe I am totally upset. 

Despite all these, I am still thankful though I was not able to control my emotion today. 

Thanks Coi for comforting momi.

photo from internet

Saturday, July 17, 2010

If You

I can't remember where I got this, but I just found it in my compilation of docs.Anyways, I just feel the urge of sharing it.

If you're not married yet, share this with a
If you are married, share it with your spouse or
other married couples and
reflect on it.

An African proverb states, "Before you get
married, keep both eyes open,
and after you marry, close one eye."
Before you get involved and make a commitment to
someone, don't let lust,
desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure
from others or a low
self-esteem, make you blind to warning signs.
Keep your eyes open, and
don't fool yourself that you can change someone
or that what you see as
faults aren't really important.

Once you decide to commit to someone, over time
his or her flaws,
vulnerabilities, pet peeves, and differences
will become more obvious. If
you love your mate and want the relationship to
grow and evolve, you've got
to learn to close one eye and not let every
little thing bother you. You
and your mate have many different expectations,
emotional needs, values,
dreams, weaknesses, and strengths. You are two
unique individual children
of God who have decided to share a life together.

Neither of you are perfect, but are you perfect
for each other? Do you
bring out the best in each other? Do you
compliment and compromise with
each other, or do you compete, compare, and
control? What do you bring to
the relationship? Do you bring past
relationships, past hurt, past
mistrust, past pain? You can't take someone to
the altar to alter him or
her. You can't make someone love you or make
someone stay.

If you develop self-esteem, spiritual
discernment, and "a life", you won't
find yourself making someone else responsible
for your happiness or
responsible for your pain.

Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and
selfishness are not the
ingredients of a thriving, healthy, loving and
lasting relationship!
Seeking status, sex, wealth, and security are
the wrong reasons to be in a
relationship. What keeps a relationship strong?

Communication, intimacy, trust, a sense of
humor, sharing household tasks,
some getaway time without business or children
and daily exchanges (a meal,
shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a
note). Leave a nice message on
their voicemail or send a nice email.

Sharing common goals and interests. Growth is
important. Grow together, not
away from each other, giving each other space to
grow without feeling
insecure. Allow your mate to have outside
interest. You can't always be
together. Give each other a sense of belonging
and assurances of
commitment. Don't try to control one another.
Learn each other's family
situation. Respect his or her parents
regardless. Don't put pressure on
each other for material goods. Remember for
richer or for poorer.

If these qualities are missing, the relationship
will erode as resentment,
withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain
replace the passion.

The difference between 'United' and 'Untied' is
where you put the i.

This actually made me reflect further. Good points to consider. :)

Wedding Color Motif - Pink & Green Combination

Even before, when there's no wedding plan yet, I have already decided on what is going to be my color motif. It should be a combination. And because green is my favorite, this should not be left in consideration. As I thought about the other color to match with it, I wanted something feminine that made me chose pink.

Isn't it a lovely combination? Well, I guess it will still depend on the shades of green and pink  to be used which I have not finalized yet. And so whatever happens, whenever it may be Pink and Green will remain as my theme.

sample cake photo in pink & green combination (taken from internet)

Thursday, July 15, 2010

I Am Happy

There's more to life for me to be thankful about, especially these days.

And I am just so happy, happy because:
  • We were safe from typhoon "basyang's" attack
  • I was able to pay my utilities (innove, meralco, etc.)
  • I got back my internet connection
  • I have got more commissioning job
  • I now have my own domain (big thanks Niko)
  • Macoi is doing well, growing intellectually active everyday
  • "Lola: is free from sickness
  • Tita is in good mood
  • I am secured at heart
  • I am healthy
  • Dadi is safe as well
  • My friends, families, officemates and relatives are out of harm
  • Etc.
In no particular order, I am thankful about everything and grateful that I am still alive amidst life difficulties.

Thank You Lord.

Monday, July 12, 2010


How am I going to activate my pay pal account if my yahoo mail doesn’t load? How am I going to monetize my blogs and earn from it? How I am going to have more friends in the blogosphere if I am not able to blog hop? I am using my MS Word 2007 to write blogs and later upload them to blogger. And uploading is not easy too. I have to extend a lot more patience waiting for an article to be uploaded and be viewed. And most of the time, it fails.

I wish it is not a personal sabotage. Well, maybe I am just a victim of an on-line attack as I am not guilty about something to be harmed that way.

This time all I want is to get back to my usual internet connection just like when it was initially installed. I also would like to eliminate those viruses that spreading here in my desktop.

This has become the other portion of my life. Without it, how can I pursue my hobby of sharing thoughts? How can I keep in touch with friends more frequently? How can I learn things through on-line researches? How can I scout for more stuff? How? How? How?

Friday, July 9, 2010

Frustrated Me

Frustrated Me
I am not so happy today as I seem to be.
Just had another weigh in, only to find out that I have regained the pounds I've already lost.
I guess I was wrong when I assumed I would weigh  a little less than my last attempt as I am now able to wear my blouse which doesn't fit me a couple of days back.
I think I have to get back to my personal WRP as I have already stopped after losing 5lbs.
This may be the real reason why I broke my office chair - I must admit that I am in fact heavy.
Good thing I am still beautiful. Hehe! I am just trying to cheer myself up.
I am sad about it still. :(

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

My Broken Office Chair

My office chair broke this afternoon when I am about to sit on it and since I am one of the Environment, Health and Safety Committee in our office I had to report my own safety miss experience.

"Hi Sir,

This is to report the incident of a broken chair which exactly happened to me.

Around 1pm today (July 07, 2010), after our lunch break (which we spent playing table tennis at training room 4), I proceeded to my work station (here at Admin-Finance Office) to get back to my tasks. When I am about to sit in my chair there was a crack sound beneath and I instantly fell from it. My chairs' feet shattered. Good thing I was not fully seated so I was able to get up so quick and glad I haven't got any injury.

Apparently, I don't look so heavy and I am not even that weighty to be blame. Kidding aside, it could be that the chair was old enough to serve at its original capacity.

Accordingly, maybe we could initiate series of inspections with our office chairs to avoid the same occurence.

Below is the picture of the broken chair for your visual reference."

Well, accidents like this really happens during those times when we least expect it. So we better take precautions always.

Just Another Unforgettable Night

Last Tuesday, June 29, 2010 we just had another encounter that was full of fun brought about by some bloopers and comic punchlines. That's right after we had our facial pampering activity.

From SM Rosario, with all of us starving to death we went straight to a food house named "Botchoks" where we had our dinner - Me, Isay, Usyo, Dante and Xyra with her bestfriend Khaye.

The first difficulty we had is the unavailability of parking space. Actually there is a reserved area but there was this motorcycle which was parked horizontally blocking our way being customers as well though  Dante was able to arranged about it.

As if a hungry hippo I immediately sat in one of the vacant tables. When all are already seated we started to place our orders. Tapsilog for me and Xye, Tapsi for Usyo, Chicken Pork Adobo for Dante, Grilled Pork for K and another variant of cooked Pork for Isay. And so the bloopers started between Isay and the waitress. 

Isay : Anong pork to? (what kind of pork was this)"  
Waitress : "Pork po" 
Isay :  "Anong luto" (what kind of pork dish?)  
Waitress:  "Pork po" 

That was the time when Isay's blood went up and firmly stressed to the waitress "Alam kong pork yan pero anong luto? (I know that it's a pork but what type of pork dish was that?)" and so the waitress replied clearly that it was a "Lechong Kawali".

After that conversation, we were wondering how the waitress has taken down our orders as she had to repeat that to us in about twice or three times. Though somewhat annoyed I kept myself quiet as I don't want to get mad. All I know was that I am so hungry just like them.

I remember there was this instance, though I was not able to absorb their dialogue, when the waitress acted as if she and K were close friends.

Before our orders were served, we had picture taking. I took Dante, Isay, and Usyo's photo while Usyo returned the favor for me, Xy and K. We never get contented so we asked the waitress to take a picture f the entire group. I handed her the iPhone and taught her that she just had to touch the little camera icon on the screen.

 So she stood away from us and all of a sudden she's giving back the iPhone because she has already taken our picture without us knowing.

 Then we asked her to give us signal prior to taking the shot, we instructed her to count from one to three. In all fairness she did the counting so well and we had our best pose I guess when she reached "three". After the counting she unexpectedly asked us "Game na po? (Are u ready?)" which means that she has not taken the picture yet. And with that we were not able to control ourselves but to laugh at her. We laughed so hard that the camera was able to capture that moment. Funny indeed.

 After that humorous instance, we all proceeded to eat as our orders were served except for K who irately waited for another 5mins or so (I was already done eating when her grilled pork was given). The service was not really perfect as Dante's Tropicana was left unserved till he asked for it.

Somehow I enjoyed the food or maybe I am just too hungry to fully notice its taste. While we were not so happy about the service, the waitress still got our sympathy when she was not allowed by her conceited boss  to keep the change that we intended to give her. 

Until we finally decided to go home, I was dropped by Isay, Usyo and Dante at our Subdivision's entrance while I was talking with my hubby over the phone and I didn't  realized that they heard our conversations. The next day, they were teasing me about my own funny punchline. :D



Friday, July 2, 2010

Shall I Go for the Wedding Vows?

"to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish..."

Yah right, I am inside a big question mark right now but not involving any lost of affection for my husband to be. It's more of the current situation. Getting married isn't easy especially if you want to do it  in a way that can be truly cherished and remembered as the perfect moment for the couple.

No doubt how my man loves me and I just feel the same way for him. Liberated me - with or without the marriage vows I can settle with him. But if we really are pushing through it, it's either we can do it in the best way we can or in a more practical manner.

What I am trying to say is that if we really want to have the church's blessing then we might as well wait for the right timing when all aspects are absolutely set or we can simply have it civil where we will not be obliged to dribble away.

Doing both could be more unreasonable in a sense as it would mean double spending.

I don't care if I have already picked the date, there is a non-stop numbers to choose from but for now I just need a sign. Apparently I can't do these things by myself.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Month-End Closing Predicament

June end is not just a month end but a quarter close – 2nd Qtr for Fiscal Year 2010.


For most accountants, last part of each month is becoming a routine of stress period when we are bound to face extreme pressures of achieving a certain reporting cut-off.


During this same stage, I am limiting myself connecting through internet during lunch break only. Sometimes I preferred not to open my browser at all; basically to control myself from my addiction – blogging.


But in doing such, I feel like I am depriving myself of something that's making my everyday complete. 


So in as much as I still can, I am visiting my sites once in a while. I love seeing updates and comments to my personal articles. It has become my stress-relief activity. While it is really very hard to maintain multiple sites especially for a newbie like me I am still planning to create one for my other passion and it's for music.


Hopefully I can start doing it after accomplishing all the reports required for June 2010 close.


Hmmn… What could be my best title for it? Maybe I should think about it further when I'm already done with the required tasks.


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